Me vs. Meandy—Who’s your bet on?

Welcome to Florafolly 🌸

The story 📚

I’m reading this line again and again.

"I’m not good enough."

Shit.

It started, as these things often do, while scrolling on my phone.

I’m an avid ChatGPT user—I’ve created my own GPTs to help with my training, my nutrition, my company… (and, let’s be real, to make sure I’m writing this correctly 😉)

BREF

I use it A LOT.

So when I stumble upon a video of someone saying they used ChatGPT to identify their limiting beliefs, I think, Why not?

I start with business beliefs.

Fun. Insightful.

Then I dig deeper. What about me, as a person?

A few seconds later, the result pops up, my biggest limiting belief is:

"I’m not good enough."

Old news—I’ve always been self-aware. A psychiatrist once told me I had low self-esteem, and honestly, it wasn’t a revelation. You don’t need a degree to see the patterns when you’ve been living inside my head.

But what’s shocking?

It shows in my writing.

SHIT.

Is that the image I’m sending to the world?

That I’m not good enough?

Inhale. Exhale.

It’s making me anxious.

But instead of spiraling, what if I take a real, honest look at myself?

Not from Meandy’s perspective—Meandy being my fixed-mindset alter ego, the one who’s relentlessly mean to me.

I pressure myself constantly to do better.

I started a company, but when people say, “That’s impressive!” I think, “Is it? I don’t have that many clients yet…”

I read 60 books last year, but I told myself they weren’t intellectual enough.

I push myself to grow on social media, but I feel like crap every time I miss a post.

I want to be a writer (we could argue I am one), but I feel like the biggest impostor on the planet.

Yet—

I’ve:
Written every day for a year.
Built a blog.
Launched a newsletter.
Grew my Threads account to 1,800 followers from scratch.
Obsessively studied storytelling.
Performed stories, on stage, in front of a crowd.
Wrote an actual freaking e-book.

But still, it’s never enough—because I’m never enough.

And it’s FUCKING exhausting.

The lesson 📝

When I look at the content I consume, I see the problem.

I’m stuck in a productivity bubble where everyone seems flawless, successful, and invincible.

And I do the worst thing possible: I compare myself to them. 

Red flag alert. 🚩🚩🚩

There’s nothing wrong with wanting to be better—as long as it’s healthy.

Building good habits? Great. But nothing works without balance.

Discipline without flexibility is dictatorship.

The truth? I’m great at bullying myself.

The real issue isn’t about doing more or less—it’s about recognizing my worth.

My best isn’t always 100%. Sometimes, it’s 20%.

And yet, knowing that and feeling good about it are two different things.

That’s where my deepest contradiction lies: Flora vs. Meandy, a daily battle.

I fear that one day, people will look at me and think, “Ugh, she’s not that great after all,” and leave. (childhood trauma alert)

But in the meantime, I’m the one leaving myself behind.

Forgetting what I’m worth.
Second-guessing my abilities.
Sabotaging myself.

And the person who suffers the most from that?

Me.

But you know what?

If awareness is the first step, action is the second.

So it’s about time I seriously kick Meandy’s ass.

Starting now by creating my “Wins Cookie Jar”—a list of everything I do that I am proud of. No “not enough,” no “could be better.” Just wins, big or small.

And every time, Meandy will whisper
'You’re not good enough'
I’ll pull one out and tell myself:
'Oh yeah? That’s your opinion, bitch. Not mine.'

The questions 💭

What about you? Have you ever thought about your limiting beliefs?

Here’s a short process to get started:

1️⃣ What limiting beliefs do you hold?
And be brutally honest—what’s that one thought that keeps creeping in?

2️⃣ Have you ever tested if it’s true?
Would the people who love you agree with this belief?

3️⃣ What’s one thing you can do today to start proving it wrong?
A tiny act of defiance—something that tells that belief to shut the hell up.

And now, I’m curious.
What’s one thing you should be celebrating about yourself right now?

Hit reply and tell me—it’ll be your first cookie in the jar. 🍪✨

With love,

Flora